Friday, December 19, 2008


Today has been a wild ride.

Not wild in the sense of zoo animals or roller coaster rides but wild because I spent an entire 9 hour day with 20 people and all we did was speak our dreams, and desires, and love for each other.

It was wild in the sense that I realized that other people know me better than I know myself.

It was wild in the sense that others see potential and qualities in me that I never imagined that I had

AND it was wild because I could see that potential, those qualities, and that fondness for others in the room that I have grown to deeply love and care about.

It is a weird feeling to want something so badly for someone else that the thought of them never attaining it crushes you.

It is a weird feeling to know that the things you wish for others are things that you should wish for yourself but never do.

It is a weird feeling to feel totally safe but totally vulnerable at the same time

It is a weird feeling to know that God hurts for you just as much as others hurt for you.

I don't claim to know anything about this wild and crazy and weird day that I had but I do know that it will continue again tomorrow and I can't wait to see what "new" and "crazy" and "wild" and "amazing" things God has to teach us next.


Ryan said...

Great post Lena. I enjoyed reading it a lot. :)

And I agree.

teri said...

Most precious Lena how i love you! Always remember that man will fail you, it is a given because we are sinners saved by God's amazing grace.It doesn't matter what men we are or where God has allowed you to "meet" us in your sojourning, i have learned from experience my dear we will all fail you. Keep your eyes firmly fixed upon our awesome God who will never fail, for He is the same yesterday, today and forever! Jude 20, 24+25.

Jen said...

lena, you're beautiful!

kboden said...

Lena, this is a beautiful description of deep community that the Lord has called us to. When one part of the body hurts, the rest do also. We lean on eachother, trust eachother, love one another...not out of fear of being hurt but out of total dependence on Christ and His Spirit who resides in each of His children. Welcome to community! Welcome home!

Kaminsky said...

I love it Lena! It is this crazy werid amazingly awesome experience. I hope you are doing great and sorry about no deep dish for you :(

Neil and Courtney said...

my only 2 responses to this post are: I love you & all the dreams for you are real!